It’s been a while but the end of the year is causing me to reflect…Three posts since my supposed “last post”. I definitely have a problem letting things go.
Anyways, writing this blog helped me greatly for much of the first part of the year so I came back to say a quick hello and wish you a happy new year when it comes tomorrow. For much of the time I was posting regularly on here, (although I only had a couple hundred followers), I know that there were usually close to one thousand unique individuals (sometimes more) reading each month, following me through my ups and downs. Knowing that helped a lot. I was grateful that I was not alone and that there were people out there who maybe kinda identified with my most personal, often-screwed-up thoughts.
Thank you for following me this past year! I miss writing for this blog. And writing for a blog in general. I work through my feelings by writing about them and I haven’t done much of that lately. You all perhaps gathered that I have enough issues to build a mountain rivaling that of Kilimanjaro. Therefore, even if one part of my life was floating happily along the river, you can be sure that another part would have sprung a leak.
Tis the way the cookie crumbles with me.
Hmm, so quick update. I am not quite where I want to be in life…Still single with nary a prospect in sight. Worse is that my job contract ended 2 months ago so I am also jobless. And the icing on the cake is that despite the fears I wrote about earlier I am actually considering going back to live with my parents in a couple months, hopefully temporarily. Ok, maybe when I said I’m not quite where I want to be what I meant to say was that I’m far from I where I want to be. However, I am thankful for what I have. This includes my humour, dark and sarcastic though it may sometimes be :). But peoples, imagine how much more screwed up I have become in the past few months without an outlet!
So I have been toying with the idea of starting up this blog again or, rather, starting a new queer-focused one that continues from this one. I also plan to simultaneously have another blog about my life in general as I try to find a job, figure out my career and find my purpose in life - it’ll be dealing with all my struggles and insecurities on that. (When do I EVER not have struggles and insecurities?) That second blog will also be anonymous and hopefully also have the same tone but it won’t be queer-focused though. I think I just need to vent and wonder about my broader life in that one. Clearly, I love to work through the hard topics of my life with an audience.
The only thing I’m worried about with (re-)starting the queer blog is that my life is now sooo very mundane compared to before. And if I go back home in a few months, it will be even worse. The queer / fun to boring ratio will likely be dismal.
So, if any of you are still reading this, what do you all think? Should I start a new queer-focused blog now that I know I am queer? Or should I focus on getting my life together in a more general, personal blog? Or maybe I should just focus on getting my shit together, period?
Alright, now that I’ve just thought out loud as usual and ended up with multiple paragraphs in what was supposed to be a one-paragraph post, lemme say what I came on here to say.
Happy New Year to you and yours! If you believe in God, may He grant you a very good year, filled with love, laughter, happiness and much fun! If you don’t believe in God, I’m gonna ask Him to grant you that anyways but you can pretend that I’ve only just wished you love, laughter, happiness and much fun in the coming year, no deity involved.